Not Sure
I like being nice to people. I have moments of specific anger and I have to act on that but I’m not an angry person. I’m a sweet, kind, polite, giving, thoughtful person. Why would someone want to be mean, rude, stingy unkind and selfish? Why? WHY? Why would someone WANT that to be the way their life is? Why would someone allow himeself to live like that?
Maybe that’s why so many people are on Prozac and shit.
I should credit my parents…. I know this is an afterthought and that’s tacky but I live in the moment. When I was a kid all my friends’ parents got divorced. Well no not all of them but it was the 70s and 80s and some part of me thought “it’s only a matter of time.” But they didn’t. And while they were far from perfect as parents, I’m sure I was far from perfect as a child, but we all turned out ok and I was lucky to have what I had.
Marriage is not for me. For specific reasons but philosophically because I have no faith in it. But someone else’s marriage isn’t about me, just as their love isn’t about me and their bond isn’t about me. If I get invited to the wedding them I’m delighted for the invitation, honored by the invitation, and pleased by the experience. And often the food is good. And sometimes they serve drinks.
Kidding.
But more and more I get wedding invitations and I step back and look at the couple and think, Brian, this is so wrong. Couples who get married out of frantic desire to stabilize their lives. I don’t think marriage should be about stability, or rectifying the past. It should be aout the future, if it should be about anything, if it has to even happen. And “the future” isn’t a metaphor for making babies. Little annoys me more than hearing about people who have babies to “save their marriage.” Hmm, come to think about it, little annoys me more than people having babies period. (OK I just said that for effect.)
This has turned into a mean post and that’s not where I wanted it to go. But you know what, I’ll let it stand as it is. Mom, Dad, congratulations on 43 years.
May 12th, 2006 at 9:58 am
Brian,
Do you really think you are nice? I once thought you were so I loaned you 5 movies and three books. That was back in January. You still have The Hire and a book. I called you and leave you notes, but you don’t respond. I loaned those to you in good faith as a “nice person” would. I’d appreciate an action from you please. Stop hiding.